"I get that you have to pick && choose your battles; I just wish, every once in a while, that I could be one you choose. ." - Me
This is about a lot of things. my family, my friends, my parents, my brother. . who knows. . the list goes one. . As dramatic as this sounds. . I am tired of always feeling invisible. I want to be someone worth standing up for. Any time my brother comes at me with his words or with his fists, I want, more than anything, to be stood up for. To have someone step in front of him. . not to pull me back after the fact, or to break us up. . but to stop him before he starts. Sure I can stand up for myself. Thats not the issue. What I want is to be worth it. I hear all the excuses, but my favorite is, "We have to pick && choose our battles with him." I can understand that. But what does that make me? Obviously, not a battle worth fighting for.
People always leave, that does not mean they have to walk out of your life. It just means there has to actually be an effect of both ends to continue the relationship. . But in my experience, that does not happen. Once someone leaves, they are gone. Apparently I am not a friend worth fighting for.
Here is a song that really really fits how I am feeling. . in general.
